Tuesday, February 07, 2006
I am so touch but...
While busy digging in my nasi lemak this morning, my colleague approached me.
" Are you sure about your resignation?"
" Of course la, you think I will joke with such things?"
" Nolar, eh I got reprimanded okay when I told him we are holding a farewell party for you?"
" Reprimanded? for what?"
" He said how could you be sure that she's resigning? who told you?"
O_0 Eh I am not resigning? Not confirmed? But I have already tender my resignation, nay? I have even confirmed with new firm and based on what that he can't confirm my resignation?
I didn't offer comment or about their counter offer to me. Let it be and let it go, I thought i made it pretty clear that I am not going to eat my own words.
On the other thought, hmmm..I wonder I should be touched or mad?
Touch- I am thoroughly appreciated though I DO NOT FEEL THAT WAY FOR A YEAR UNTIL LIKE RIGHT THIS MOMENT?
Mad- Cos they don't freaking respect my decision and they actually wanna delay my farewell party?
NO WAY
I want pizza on my farewell party thankyouverymuch.
While busy digging in my nasi lemak this morning, my colleague approached me.
" Are you sure about your resignation?"
" Of course la, you think I will joke with such things?"
" Nolar, eh I got reprimanded okay when I told him we are holding a farewell party for you?"
" Reprimanded? for what?"
" He said how could you be sure that she's resigning? who told you?"
O_0 Eh I am not resigning? Not confirmed? But I have already tender my resignation, nay? I have even confirmed with new firm and based on what that he can't confirm my resignation?
I didn't offer comment or about their counter offer to me. Let it be and let it go, I thought i made it pretty clear that I am not going to eat my own words.
On the other thought, hmmm..I wonder I should be touched or mad?
Touch- I am thoroughly appreciated though I DO NOT FEEL THAT WAY FOR A YEAR UNTIL LIKE RIGHT THIS MOMENT?
Mad- Cos they don't freaking respect my decision and they actually wanna delay my farewell party?
NO WAY
I want pizza on my farewell party thankyouverymuch.
Thursday, January 26, 2006
New stepping stone
At last, after much anticipation, new comp called to confirm their offer to me. I can feel myself grinning. I took up the offer without missing a beat.
On a sadder note, handing in my resignation letter was harder than I imagine. I guess I've grown accustomed to the the easy, quite flexible time-table with 8hours of free internet access.
But I know, I shall not procastinate no more. I handed in my resignation letter stating my service ends on end of February. They counter offer. I told them NO.
"is not about the money anymore."
I know I made the right decision.
At last, after much anticipation, new comp called to confirm their offer to me. I can feel myself grinning. I took up the offer without missing a beat.
On a sadder note, handing in my resignation letter was harder than I imagine. I guess I've grown accustomed to the the easy, quite flexible time-table with 8hours of free internet access.
But I know, I shall not procastinate no more. I handed in my resignation letter stating my service ends on end of February. They counter offer. I told them NO.
"is not about the money anymore."
I know I made the right decision.
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
I am still wallowing in self pity.
Been dying to toss the letter on my smirking GM's table, maybe he thought he successfully persuaded me to give them another year,another chance for them to prove that they could afford me. yeah right. I am not into giving second chances buddy. Wait til I throw a huge cow of an envelope with a big 'R' to him.
hah, Do I look like I got the word dumb on my forehead. I gave you a fucking chance buddy, one year=365days=8760hours=525600minutes to prove your capability, which is obviously not as big or as capable as you made it to be.
So I shall still waste another year of my youth rotting in this shithole. think again and dream on. If i wanna sit and act ditzy for another 31 536 000 seconds, I might as well as be a civil servant or better yet join Miss Oriental Pearl = wont need to use brain,just pretty face slab on with 1inch thick of makeup and parade around in swimsuit, how hard is it to walk,smile,wave and earn money. hmm now that doesn't sound too bad.. I shall figure out how to cover my cellulite 1st.
Obviously the new boss chickened out on me after my ever-so-direct questions. reminder- fuck honesty next time, lying is the way in society now. what the hell am I going to do with the resignation letter now?whatever happen to the offer YOU made?
My hope is crumbling, his offer aka fake promise is melting into a puddle of birdshit right before my own eyes.
Been dying to toss the letter on my smirking GM's table, maybe he thought he successfully persuaded me to give them another year,another chance for them to prove that they could afford me. yeah right. I am not into giving second chances buddy. Wait til I throw a huge cow of an envelope with a big 'R' to him.
hah, Do I look like I got the word dumb on my forehead. I gave you a fucking chance buddy, one year=365days=8760hours=525600minutes to prove your capability, which is obviously not as big or as capable as you made it to be.
So I shall still waste another year of my youth rotting in this shithole. think again and dream on. If i wanna sit and act ditzy for another 31 536 000 seconds, I might as well as be a civil servant or better yet join Miss Oriental Pearl = wont need to use brain,just pretty face slab on with 1inch thick of makeup and parade around in swimsuit, how hard is it to walk,smile,wave and earn money. hmm now that doesn't sound too bad.. I shall figure out how to cover my cellulite 1st.
Obviously the new boss chickened out on me after my ever-so-direct questions. reminder- fuck honesty next time, lying is the way in society now. what the hell am I going to do with the resignation letter now?whatever happen to the offer YOU made?
My hope is crumbling, his offer aka fake promise is melting into a puddle of birdshit right before my own eyes.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Shitload
Been stressing out, stretching my sanity to the maximun limits. I actually managed to complete the project before the deadline but . .
there's more changes. more deadlines.
Shit.Hentam kepala on the keyboard. Dying with stress, wanna just break down and shed some stress-tears but I can't and there's no point in doing that anyway, who's going to sympathise with me? except me,myself.
Even bonus and increment can't cheer me up plus what is there to be cheering about when they fucking didn't keep their promises and gave me lesser than what they promised when they were coaxing me not to leave the comp. shit.
Most depressing fact is when you just realised you've got a wussy for supervisor.
An amoeba who didn't even dare to voice out his opinion over his displeasure about the benefits he've got and he actually want yours truly, ME OKAY ME, to do it for him. What the hell does his benefit have to do with me? read this HIS BENEFIT.
someone pls torch me with matches. Pretty please.
Anyway I actually went for an interview on monday. Design firm, smaller in scale, less workers. I like. I need a change of environment. Less office politics, less fakes, less pretentious, less vomit inducing but...
they haven't call me back yet. shit. I want the job, I want, please call me back. *cross fingers. Please get me out of this dumphole. *cross all fingers and toes.ouch ouch*
Damn, I am sinking into deep blue depression. I know that for a fact because;
Shit, they still haven't get back to me. shit. I wanna cry like now. Bohooo
Been stressing out, stretching my sanity to the maximun limits. I actually managed to complete the project before the deadline but . .
there's more changes. more deadlines.
Shit.Hentam kepala on the keyboard. Dying with stress, wanna just break down and shed some stress-tears but I can't and there's no point in doing that anyway, who's going to sympathise with me? except me,myself.
Even bonus and increment can't cheer me up plus what is there to be cheering about when they fucking didn't keep their promises and gave me lesser than what they promised when they were coaxing me not to leave the comp. shit.
Most depressing fact is when you just realised you've got a wussy for supervisor.
An amoeba who didn't even dare to voice out his opinion over his displeasure about the benefits he've got and he actually want yours truly, ME OKAY ME, to do it for him. What the hell does his benefit have to do with me? read this HIS BENEFIT.
someone pls torch me with matches. Pretty please.
Anyway I actually went for an interview on monday. Design firm, smaller in scale, less workers. I like. I need a change of environment. Less office politics, less fakes, less pretentious, less vomit inducing but...
they haven't call me back yet. shit. I want the job, I want, please call me back. *cross fingers. Please get me out of this dumphole. *cross all fingers and toes.ouch ouch*
Damn, I am sinking into deep blue depression. I know that for a fact because;
- I am having insomnia for the past few days
- I am having recurring nightmares
- I am hungry but I do not have any appetite to eat at all
- I am having extreme mood swings
- I am feeling like my cat just got ran over by a truck. you get the drift.
- I want to cry but I can't
- I am having multiple ulcers
- I am over-sensitive, over-critical over small menial things
- I do not feel like talking
- I do not want to socialise
- I do not cheer up even when I got a bundle of untouch MONEY $$$$ in my atm
Shit, they still haven't get back to me. shit. I wanna cry like now. Bohooo
