Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Shitload
Been stressing out, stretching my sanity to the maximun limits. I actually managed to complete the project before the deadline but . .
there's more changes. more deadlines.
Shit.Hentam kepala on the keyboard. Dying with stress, wanna just break down and shed some stress-tears but I can't and there's no point in doing that anyway, who's going to sympathise with me? except me,myself.
Even bonus and increment can't cheer me up plus what is there to be cheering about when they fucking didn't keep their promises and gave me lesser than what they promised when they were coaxing me not to leave the comp. shit.
Most depressing fact is when you just realised you've got a wussy for supervisor.
An amoeba who didn't even dare to voice out his opinion over his displeasure about the benefits he've got and he actually want yours truly, ME OKAY ME, to do it for him. What the hell does his benefit have to do with me? read this HIS BENEFIT.
someone pls torch me with matches. Pretty please.
Anyway I actually went for an interview on monday. Design firm, smaller in scale, less workers. I like. I need a change of environment. Less office politics, less fakes, less pretentious, less vomit inducing but...
they haven't call me back yet. shit. I want the job, I want, please call me back. *cross fingers. Please get me out of this dumphole. *cross all fingers and toes.ouch ouch*
Damn, I am sinking into deep blue depression. I know that for a fact because;
Shit, they still haven't get back to me. shit. I wanna cry like now. Bohooo
Been stressing out, stretching my sanity to the maximun limits. I actually managed to complete the project before the deadline but . .
there's more changes. more deadlines.
Shit.Hentam kepala on the keyboard. Dying with stress, wanna just break down and shed some stress-tears but I can't and there's no point in doing that anyway, who's going to sympathise with me? except me,myself.
Even bonus and increment can't cheer me up plus what is there to be cheering about when they fucking didn't keep their promises and gave me lesser than what they promised when they were coaxing me not to leave the comp. shit.
Most depressing fact is when you just realised you've got a wussy for supervisor.
An amoeba who didn't even dare to voice out his opinion over his displeasure about the benefits he've got and he actually want yours truly, ME OKAY ME, to do it for him. What the hell does his benefit have to do with me? read this HIS BENEFIT.
someone pls torch me with matches. Pretty please.
Anyway I actually went for an interview on monday. Design firm, smaller in scale, less workers. I like. I need a change of environment. Less office politics, less fakes, less pretentious, less vomit inducing but...
they haven't call me back yet. shit. I want the job, I want, please call me back. *cross fingers. Please get me out of this dumphole. *cross all fingers and toes.ouch ouch*
Damn, I am sinking into deep blue depression. I know that for a fact because;
- I am having insomnia for the past few days
- I am having recurring nightmares
- I am hungry but I do not have any appetite to eat at all
- I am having extreme mood swings
- I am feeling like my cat just got ran over by a truck. you get the drift.
- I want to cry but I can't
- I am having multiple ulcers
- I am over-sensitive, over-critical over small menial things
- I do not feel like talking
- I do not want to socialise
- I do not cheer up even when I got a bundle of untouch MONEY $$$$ in my atm
Shit, they still haven't get back to me. shit. I wanna cry like now. Bohooo
# posted by daisy petals @ 11:16 PM 
